Monday, January 23, 2012
Not A Joke
In my last blog post I talked about being a good advocate for yourself - this is something I stood by and still do after today's session. I wish so badly I could have recorded the conversation, I wish everyone could take home a nice recording of their visits to let everyone know what the feeling of being on trial in a doctor's office really feels like.
First of all, we are diabetics 24/7 like a Super Walmart or a Variety store. We don't get time off, we don't put away our pump and meter at 5 pm and pick it back up at 9 am. Our tools that we work with are on hand all the time, our blood drips from our fingers anytime we want to eat and our body takes a daily beating when we stick needles into it like it is our personal pin cushion. We are the diabetics that are responsible for our body and yes we know that we slack sometimes, but what have you ever done perfect on?
Today I went into the office really excited to share the news of my upcoming successes. I thought I would be writing down my Youtube link or promising to send them a copy of the newspaper. Instead, I found myself on the hot seat as they realized I wasn't quiet checking four times a day - always. Hey, I admit it, sometimes we just don't have time to be the ideal diabetic that is just life. Unfortunately, despite being a full time diabetic, I am also a full time - a lot of other things.
The idea of a scare tactic in order to 'smarten' up' is beyond me. Why would you tell someone, you know we can take your pump away if you don't check four times... Well although this is the case, and I am sure it happens, my A1C is 7.7 and I am fully taking care of my diabetes to the best I can at this moment. I haven't ever had D.K.A and I am far more involved in the diabetes community than most.
You see, threatening to take away an insulin pump is not a joke. Would you threaten to take away an oxygen tank? Would you threaten to take away an Epi pen? When you threaten to take away a Wheelchair? Probably not. I realize that the pump is government issued in Ontario and that part of the requirement is to check four times, but give me some slack! What you see is my last two weeks, not the three years I have been diabetic.
Going to the diabetic education centre is supposed to be a place of help, not an episode of Judge Judy. You shouldn't have to defend yourself or remember what you ate twelve days ago. You shouldn't have to feel pressured or threatened. None of this should be happening, because what does a diabetic do that gets pissed off at a doctor's appointment - well this one writes about it!