|My Wedding Dress Shopping Entourage at Sophie's (KW)|
My stress levels have been fairly minimal, the odd thing I will get caught up in, and stress about, but eventually it rolls off my back and I am feeling O.K. My blood sugars react to stress like glue to paper so, I know that once my stress begins, managing my diabetes becomes even harder. And, to be honest, sometimes I have neglected to even worry about my blood sugars because I am so caught up in my other things to do. Finding balance has always been hard for me. I have a hard time evenly spacing my attention on diabetes and all else that goes on.
My pump has been on my mind, as I started looking for outfits for various occasions, engagement party, bridal showers etc. I always think, Where will my pump go? How will I get access to it when I need it?
For our engagement photos, I simply just sat my pump aside for the photoshoot because I knew that some way, some how that pump was going to make an appearance and I felt like I didn't want anything of this shoot to remind me of my diabetes (not because I don't like that part of me, but because diabetes IS always there, and I felt like this was an opportunity to have a moment to celebrate myself and Mike) PLUS, we may or may not have gotten a bit wet in the lake, so I didn't want to risk breaking my pump.
The ultimate test of wearability with the pump came with trying on WEDDING DRESSES! First of all, I was so excited that I thought my blood sugar was low and had to test before even going into the store. My nerves were all over, jumping with excitement at a moment every girl dreams of doing. I sat my pump aside as I pulled on the beautiful dresses one by one, not worrying about where my pump would fit into the equation. Just enjoying every moment of wearing something so beautiful.
It wasn't until I said YES TO THE DRESS that I acknowledged, I will have to make room for the insulin pump as I see fit. As much as you don't want to have to worry about diabetes in all these amazing life moments, it has to happen, however, it doesn't have to take away from the experience!