Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Don't You Wish

Don't you wish that the inspiration you gained from the weekend could be explained to others who weren't there? As much as we try to explain how it feels to be up there - nothing comes close to how you actually felt and feel.

After being at winter slipstream I feel alive and at what moment I felt that - well there was many. I recall specific moments where I began to live a little bit more and smile a little bit more. The first experience was on the first night when we got to know each other. I kept thinking, "wow, these people are all diabetic and know matter what I say they know exactly how I feel." I also was thinking how individual I feel at home with my pump and meter and how now I feel 'normal' within this group.

The second moment occurred during the challenge course. Which looked impossible, but of course was not. Four of us had to climb up the pole, stand together on the top and then we leaned back relying on each other. When I got to the top, (knowing at the back of mind I was going to accomplish this) I felt alive. I felt amazing, looking down below, above and beyond. I felt like I could do anything and will do anything.

Another moment was when I went skiing for the first time ever in my life. To add to this brand new experience I was in the dark and on a frozen lake. On the way back I was for the most part by myself focusing on gliding without falling - and at one moment I stopped and just smiled. It felt good, just standing on skis, in the dark, with the stars, on the lake, smiling. I began to think, "Wow, if I knew diabetes would take me here, I would recommend this disease to anyone!"

The following moment came shortly after in the core. As we drank hot chocolate and talked about diabetes, travel, adventure and family amongst one another. It was absolutely amazing, and I stayed up until 2 a.m just talking about things that I could never talk about otherwise for that long.

Then at 2 a.m as I was walking back to my cabin alone, I looked up at the stars - that were amazing and once again smiled, knowing that I wouldn't want to be anywhere else right now with my life... I was proud of myself and proud to be a diabetic.

There were many moments like this throughout the weekend, but these are the ones that stood out the most to me. I am sure other diabetics at slipstream have moments similar to these that occurred during the weekend.


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