Monday, March 29, 2010
I don't know if people realize how excited I am to have this opportunity this Tuesday because this means more to me than just having a table. Diabetes hasn't been a part of my life as long as being a normal baby, child and teenager has. I spent almost 18 years of my life not knowing what it was like to put my heart into something and believe in myself. Of course I had love for many people in my life as equal as today but I didn't have the passion that I do now.
Little things like scrap booking were a big part of who I was, and I did take pride in what I accomplished; however, I didn't look at my achievements as great ones. In fact a year plus ago if you were to ask me what I was good at, I would have sat there looking at you not knowing exactly what to say. If I thought of something I'd probably say that I was crafty as if being crafty wasn't anything to be proud of.
I didn't think I was good enough to go to university; therefore I failed to apply. I didn't believe that I had any skills that could be applied to anything practical. Where this lack of ambition and confidence came from, I don't know? But I do know that I am not the only one that went through something like this.
Where I am now in life is much different from where I was then which to me proves to anyone out there that if you put your mind to it you can achieve it. Like I stress, it took me a disease to figure this out but it doesn't have to be like that for you.
Thankfully I have confidence and ambition now and I have applied that to not only achieve good marks but to give back. I always think, man if only I could have all of these traits I gained from diabetes and just leave the diabetes behind but unfortunately that is not the way that it works.