Now, this isn't a bash on the health care team that supports us, in fact without them at times we would be lost. They have a purpose in our lives as we visit them every three months or so. They work as part of our support team, just on the medical side of things, but occasionally for those personal moments as well (but mostly medical...) But, what I am trying to say is that little seven year olds living with diabetes, 13 year old teenagers, fifty year old type 1 veterans, they all know what's going on despite their lack PHD, perhaps.
Even though I have heard this statement plenty of times, it didn't hit me until I was sitting in on my endocrinologist/diabetic education appointment that I realized the words coming out of the doctor's mouth, basal, bolus rates, insulin, suspended pumps, hypoglycaemia - all these words I knew of course, but meant something different to me. To be honest, when my doctor talked about basal adjustments, in my head I was thinking, do you even know what that means? and OF COURSE, she knows what that means, what was I thinking when I thought that? But really, to me, adjusting basal rates really meant something, it meant adjusting my life line, tweaking insulin, being the guinea pig in my own life experiment.
It wasn't that I didn't trust what the doctor had to say about my blood sugars, not at all. In fact I knew I had some tweaking to do with my rates, it was just that for some reason I felt like we were on two different plants, yet using the same language. I say these words often, "I am going to bolus for this" or "I corrected, but I think something else is going on..." these words come out of my mouth all the time, but when it is splattered on a paper in front of a panel of j
I don't believe that I know everything there is to know about diabetes, but I also believe that if I wanted to know everything, I could find it out, learn it, live it, do it, breath it - within a matter of seconds. I choose what I want to do with my diabetes and what I want to know. I know the complications; however, I couldn't explain them all to you because that is something I rather not indulge in. My knowledge of diabetes isn't from a textbook or lecture from a top school, I don't have a diploma hanging on my wall saying "She knows diabetes...very well.. in fact, she's a professional." But, of course I don't need all that.
I am content with my vials of insulin, purple pump, USB meter and the highs and lows of diabetes, and the endocrinologists can have the pleasure of having their title, diplomas, and expensive textbooks and somewhere we will meet in the middle to help each other out!