Thursday, November 17, 2011
Diabetes Picked Me
After getting interviewed by the Gazette the journalist said something that really sparked a light within in me, "I guess you didn't choose diabetes - diabetes chose you." I have kind of dwelled on this idea for a couple days now thinking of how it really applies and what it really means.
Before diabetes I was pretty typical. I didn't really do anything out of the box even though deep down inside I knew I had potential. I always thought to myself - I wish I had something unique about myself that I could share with others. Of course, now telling this there is no proof that I felt this way. Even sitting in elementary school hearing the names read out on the attendance list - the last names sounding so unique and extraordinary in some way and then mine was read...Brown...how unique.
I know now looking back that I've always been unique because every person is unique in their own way. I didn't see it then and to be honest it wasn't like I had a whole slew of life experience to share. Now, I have a blog full of life experience and it just keeps getting longer.
So, going back to diabetes choosing me. I think it's obvious that I didn't choose diabetes. I didn't even know I could be a target for diabetes - I wasn't excessively heavy, nor was I older in age. I had no idea that the shadow of diabetes crept behind me waiting to smoother me and convert me into a diabetic.
But, here I am - my life line is a plastic tube attached to 300 mL of insulin. Diabetes some how decided that I would be one of the 300,000 others in Canada to get type 1 diabetes. I think I am slowly learning why diabetes choose me and the more I think about it - I can't imagine what it would be like if diabetes had decided to leave me alone.