Friday, August 6, 2010
There isn't a day that I don't think about my diabetes and there isn't a day that I ever could. Diabetes is a 24 hour disease that makes sure I take the time to think about it no matter what the occasion. After experiencing every occasion in the past year with diabetes I learned first hand that no matter what I want to do, diabetes is going to tag along and let me know it's present.
I try to be as normal as I can be. I know that when the chip bowl is being passed around along with the sour cream dip I am not thinking what everyone else is thinking about, rather I am calculating carbs and thinking about how much insulin I would need. For someone who absolutely hates math, I do a lot of counting during the day.
It's funny how much time I spend dealing with my diabetes and thinking about my diabetes, yet there are times when all of a sudden I feel like I just found out. I look down at my pump and cannot believe it's attached to me.
Only a short time ago I didn't have diabetes at all and now look where I am. I never had to visit so many doctors/nurses in my life and before entering the E.R when I was diagnosed I hadn't been there since August 16th 1990 - which was in fact when I was born.
My entire lifestyle was changed and overall the change brought a lot of inspiration, accomplishments and success. I now truly understand what it means to live life to the fullest. Even though I am constantly having to be aware of my diabetes the whole concept of it can slip away from me - which I am sure is a good thing.
I am not just a diabetic - I am Kayla and always will be.