The first step was getting myself weighed and my blood pressure done. Usually I would be nervous about getting weighed because well, who likes someone weighing them? But, I knew for sure that I was down from my last visit and I had weighed myself in the A.M so I had an idea of what it would be. No shocker there. Blood pressure was totally normal and I actually remembered not to cross my legs when I sat down to get it done - success.
Next was my actual doctor, who is super nice. I actually do not mind seeing her, but I always fear one day she will look at my blood work or pump upload and lay down the law. But, it wasn't the day for that, she told me I was doing a great job (even though I didn't feel like I was to my own standards) and that she would just change a few minor basal rates and viola, appointment done. Oh, and a couple samples of insulin - which for a girl with no benefits, I'm all for.
I left feeling good about the appointment, and promised myself to lower my a1c, despite the fact it was never even brought up at my appointment. I think, what I have realized is that, when it comes down to it, with diabetes, you are your own doctor. You make a lot of the calls, adjustments, and ultimately it's your disease to manage. For sure, you have the support around you, and your doctors advice, but really we have so much power over our own medicine.