Despite being totally open about my disease there is a sense of frustration I hold about the whole idea. In fact there are times when I say, OH MY GOD I have diabetes and more recently I have started to envy those with self producing insulin. I wonder why they don't have diabetes and will they get to live a healthy life forever?
I think this frustration and pancreatic jealousy is common and normal. To everyone else I am a basic, Canadian female, but to those I have talked to know that I have one extra thing that makes me stand out in a crowd of at least 12 (unless of course I am at a Connected in Motion event... not so special there....)
I guess no one can see this side of diabetes or know what it is like to be jealous of a working pancreas, but the best I can do is know that I am doing my best.